Saturdays

It's been a pretty good weekend. I love being off on Saturday's. I would never work a Saturday again if it wasn't for my clients. Well my dh had to work so me and A went to cracker barrel for breakfast. Yum! Then we went to walmart, and then went to go see my dh and talk to him while he worked. We then came home to nap and get my food ready for the pinterest party. The party was fun. I had high hopes of doing a certain craft but I bought the wrong thing. Oh well I enjoyed myself. My medicine is giving me hot flashes! My headaches aren't as bad as the other times. Thank goodness. I purchased the most expensive ovulation kit and I started testing today. Of course I messed up and had to use another one. All I can think about is Monday!!! We start p90x... I pray we can stick with it. It's gonna be hard but A's long as we both stay committed we will do it. My dh told me I need to quit planning stuff...lol the past 2 months have been so busy! We are hardly ever home, and we love being at home. We are going to a crawfish boil tomorrow evening. I'm so excited! I'm hoping that I can focus on getting healthier and not so much on getting pregnant! By the way....I get sick of hearing.....your just trying too hard....or just relax....Really?? I only wish I didn't have to test to see when I'm ovulating or I so wish I could take it or leave it when it comes to more kids....I want atleast 3 babies! No one truly can understand until it's happened to them. I can't even imagine those friends of mine that long for just ONE baby. My heart hurts for them. I pray God has a reason for all of this

P90x

Omg...I'm getting nervous! Me and my dh start p90x on Monday. We are up late watching an infomercial on it. Im just so nervous bc its such a commentment. 7 days a week! We got the DVD set from my bro-in-law. We both have gained a ton since we met. And we are ready to get healthy. I'm losing weight for me and my family. My dr said my weight doesn't have Anything to do with me not getting pregnant but maybe this will help. Hold me accountable please. I really need this. I really need to loose 70 lbs or so. We can do it. Just have to PRAY!!

Family vacation

We had a wonderful little vacation. A is really getting to be a big girl. Well I started on my clomid Monday night and the headaches are coming...yuck. Well I will not be doing the insemination this month..or I don't think I am. My appt with the new dr isn't until April 30th. I'm scared that if I go in for my iui with my current dr he will know I'm switching.... I'm probably just crazy:). Well the one good thing that's come of this long wait of getting pregnant is that A is all about being a big sister now. Last week she told a friend of mine who's a teacher at her school that I was having a baby this week... And she keeps asking me about the baby. I'm loving it bc when I really do get pregnant she's really gonna understand and be excited!! Well my dh is coaching A's wee ball team friday. How exciting! Ohh and Saturday is the day I've been waiting for!!! The PINTEREST party!! With all my sweet friends. I'm so ready!

I've been slacking!

Ok so I think I'm finally about to start this long awaited period. Ugh... Why does my body have to do this? Well I actually switched doctors today. If I do get a positive on my ovulation kit then I'll do my iui with my current doctor. I won't see new dr until April 30th. I'm very nervous. Not sure why not like my dr will notice I'm gone?!? Well my little family is going on a weekend getaway. The thought of adopting is getting more real. I'm setting a goal for July. If I'm not pregnant by July then we will look into adoption. Prayers my way :)

The weekend

Oh what a fabulous weekend. My sh went on a camping/fishing trip with the guys in our life group. While the guys were out the girls & 15 kids got together for pizza & fun. Saturday A had her first wee ball practice. She did great. She was maybe the best on the team! Really...she minded the whole time and loved playing. Ahh she makes me one proud mama. This evening we had a play date at the park. It was just beautiful. So my AF is a week and a half late. I think it's coming though. I'm ready to start my meds and then do the iui. I'm very nervous on the other hand. This is another huge step in our journey. I hope I get a clear positive with my ovulation kit this go round. I'm gonna buy a kit that clearly states if I am or not. I'm gonna be welcoming two sweet boys into this wonderful world this week. We are taking a little family vaycay this coming weekend.

BFN!

Ok so I went and bought one of the most expensive pregnancy tests... Prayed the whole way back to work and then I see the " not pregnant"...my heart sunk:( I am loosing hope. Like I am not sure if I can continue much longer down this journey. It's mentally draining. Well tonight my life group is going to the pastors house for food and fellowship. That will probably make me feel better.

Still nothing

Still no sight of AF. I will be buying a pregnancy test tomorrow at some point :)pray for a positive!!!

No news

Ugh I'm getting tired of this game my body is playing! Still no sigh of AF. I've taken 2 dollar store tests (both neg).I'm setting a goal..if Thursday comes I'll take a more expensive one. I just get so nervous!

Munchkin market

I am so tired! I worked 8 straight hours at munchkin market. It's an upscale consignment sale of kids clothing. This is my THING!! I love it so much. Well if anyones seen my AF please let me know, bc I was sup post to start last Thursday. There's no sign of it. I've taken 2 pregnancy tests... Both were a BFN. What!?!? Ugh so now I'm just waiting. I'm gonna do some DAMAGE at mmarket when I do get pregnant with my next bundle of joy. I have no feelings that I'm pregnant, but when I found out I was pregnant with A I had no clue! Like never would have guess I would be pregnant. Well this evening A's coach came over to meet us. My sh is gonna assist him. I'm gonna be the team mom along with his wife. We are too excited!!! We are switching A's bed into a full bed Tom. A friend of mine sold us a very good matress set. She acts excited. Well I'm worn out. I'll keep you updated about my situation (if AF is visiting or a precious baby). If only we could be so blessed :)

Outside

Oh my goodness...today was by far the best day we've had in the longest time. In fact this weekend has been simply amazing! We slept in..went to brunch at cracker barrel...went to get A's wee ball stuff...went to academy and ended up buying a trampoline on our way out(what a fun surprise!)...put trampoline together & got munchkin market stuff together( while A got some beauty sleep)...jumped after nap...went to eat a early dinner...hit up lowes so my sh can do our walkway in the front...came home and stayed outside until 9ish...I LOVED every minute of the day. Looks like we will be starting on our deck in the back yard after my new nephew arrives. I cant wait!! I look forward to having many days/nights out there eating..reading..visiting..well so either I'm preggo or Gods letting me enjoy my weekend. I did take a test yesterday and got a big ole negative. Boo! My time will come eventually.

Parents night out!

I can not explain what a good time we had tonight. I'm loving getting to know all these wonderful couples. We went to Tokyo and then orange leaf! We were all stuffed! Well I was suppost to start yesterday...I cramped last night pretty bad, but today nothing. I pray almost every time I go to pee(which is ALL the time) bc that's when I know..anyways tmi huh..well tomorrow I'm OFF!! I'm very excited. Gotta get stuff ready for munchkin market. I look forward to this thing that happens twice a year. It makes me really happy.

Cramps :(

So this evening I started having light cramps. I keep praying that I don't see RED. It's now 9ish at night and I'm cramping more. It hurts, but I'm a big baby...well tomorrow me and A are sleeping in a little. I don't have to be at work until 10 and I'm excited. This will be her 2nd time to check in this week and she didn't even go Monday! Oh well not like she's in REAL school, even though they do give early morning detention...even to prek 3! Today was a pretty good day. Me and mom went and looked at fabric for the cushions for my breakfast nook my neighbor is making us. All that's left is to be painted. I am so excited. I TRIED cooking bacon deer burgers one of my clients gave me this week. They kept falling apart. My sh came in and asked what kind of meat it was. Because it was very moist. Lol I keep it entertainig around here for sure. A starts wee ball next week. We are very excited. I'm sure many future posts will be filled with funny wee ball activities.

Doctor appointment

Today was the doctor appt day. I didn't talk much, because when I would I got that being choked feeling....like I couldn't really talk full sentences kinda feeling. I hate that feeling. My doctor is just as positive as ever. Not sure if he is reminding me of my age over & over again or just asking me every time bc he can't remember. He said today that he thinks I'll get pregnant ...he's not worried about it. Now if I was 34-40 yes he would be more concerned. He said natural or with medicine I will get pregnant. I then told him...I honestly don't think I can try much longer (chocking up). I kept thinking if you cry your bill is gonna be expensive!! I was sweating and scatterbrained.. Me and my sh made a deal or he asked me to make this deal with him..after I get pregnant we won't try like this again. Meaning if the 3rd or 4th or 5th(probably just kidding with that many) just happens we will count it as a blessing. Neither one of us want to go through this again. It's so hard. We are doing everything right...we are married, have a loving house, pretty much debt free(house), Christians (I need prayer:)). So anyways my doctor prescribed me clomid still the low dosage. He doesn't think I need any higher plus the side effects are worse. And I will be doing an iui when I ovulate next. I'm not filling my medicine until I start, bc I still have hope I may be pregnant. I will know anytime now. I am scared to death. We have parents night out this Friday and we are going to eat with our life group friends. I'm also off this weekend too...I just hope my weekend doesn't get ruined. It's not like im just going to stay in bed crying. No me & my sweet girl are sleeping in, going for breakfast, going to the park...hopefully do some artwork...so yes we will be busy bees. I'm really lucky that I have certain people in my life now that I can request prayer from, And that genuinely care. I have tons of friends and they all play different roles. I am very blessed. This month i get a new nephew and a sweet friend of mines having her little boy. I'm very excited but at the same time know I'm gonna be I'll say it a little jealous. I know it's not right to be that way but it's the truth. I loved being pregnant and I loved being in labor all day. I loved having people hang out all day waiting for the arrival of my baby. My girl is asking more about the baby we've been talking about. Alyssa-Is it a boy or girl mommy? Me- we don't know yet... Alyssa- is the baby in heaven with God? REALLY? I love that kid. Ohh I've got to share this. Tonight when we were walking into church Alyssa had her 2 quarters. I told her she needs give them to the church. She said to God? Me- yes to God. She then looked down her shirt and said if I do the quarters will fall on the ground. I asked why and she said because God is in my heart. That moment just made me so happy. She really does listen when we talk to her.

Mondays

Mondays are my free days...like do whatever I want day. This Monday I chose to keep my girl out of school. We went to mops at church, then went and got chickfila. Took a good nap (we always take them together). When we woke up we brought the food to my friend. Then we went to the wellness center with my friend and my husband came shortly after. We did a pretty tough class then soaked in hot tub ahh...when we got home my sweet husband (sh) started to burn the leaves. My neighbor came down to get me to come look at breakfast nook that he's building me. All I can say is WOW! it looks so good. He's very talented. This is the same neighbor that cut me a wooden egg for my door. We've been slacking with the cleaning so I did the dishes while my sh did some laundry. Now it's time to relax and hang out with my sh. Oh and the dr office called and canceled my appt I'll be going Wednesday afternoon now. Next week is the dreaded week for anyone ttc..

Sundays

I love Sunday's! On usual we go to church, then grab lunch, then...ahh... relax and nap the rest of the day. That to me is a wonderful day. Well today was different. We went to church then came home and ate the yummy 3 hour shepherds pie from last night. Then went to a friends house. She just started selling mary Kay so I went and bought some stuff from her. We then rushed to meet our friends at the circus. It's our first one as a family and hmm we really weren't missing much. Let me just say the floors there were so sticky! I went down to get the kids glow stuff and on my way back up the stairs I literally walked out of my flip flops like 4x!!! I almost peed my pants! One of our friends kept saying the clowns are down there....they knew I was doing something crazy on the stairs, but weren't sure what. I really just was ready to park it and sit on the stairs. After the circus we went to my parents and had dinner. It was wonderful. It's been a long day! My sweet girls playing hookie tomorrow. I may make a presence at mops in the morning. Night :)

I crack myself up!

Today has been a long eventful day. I worked, then met my husband and parents at plant world. We picked out some nice plants. We chose Indian hawthornes for our bushes and a sweet olive tree. The periwinkles weren't ready yet so I'll go back and get a ton of those soon. My husband and one of his friends racked all the leaves in a pile and informed me they would be burning them...huh? I don't want a black ditch! Oh well I'm not gonna bag them all up so I'll just let him do whatever. Last night we had an event at church called "all things chocolate". It was pretty good. One of the songs that was sang made me happy.. Then I started day dreaming about how we would announce that I was pregnant. You know when the time comes. I've catch myself do that a lot. It's gonna be a pretty amazing day! My sweet girl had her own adventures today. She hung out with her daddy all day then went to a friends house. They went to chickfila then to take glamour shots. I can't wait to see them. She asked me Thursday on the way to school...when we get a baby sister or brother...then do I get to drive..umm What?!? She is so silly! I said let's call daddy and ask him. I always call him when something funny happens like this. I love including him on everything. So we all can laugh together even if it's over the speaker phone. Well let me now explain why I crack myself up. As I said on a previous post we did freezer cooking last week. (Or atleast I ment to write about it) well I pulled out a frozen sheppards pie and it said cook on 375 for 1 hour so I popped it in the oven. And hour later I pulled it out and it was still frozen in the middle...so LITERALLY 2 hours later meaning a total cooking time of 3 hours later we had the most tasty dinner. Yum! I had never had it and loved it! During those few hours I cooked 2 big pots of cheesy chicken spagetti. A friend of mine had a baby a week ago so I'm bringing her some Monday for dinner. At the same time I tried baking some blueberry muffins. I mean how simple! Wrong I burnt those puppies up! I am honestly getting use to these things happening. I always try cramming so much in such a short time. I'll learn one day:)

They have my heart

So today was a Long one...not in a bad way I just worked til 730 which is late for me. Ive just gotten so use to getting off around 3! So after I picked my girl up from school we went to the library. She had a dr Seuss snack in celebration for his bday this week. Then her daddy met me at work so I could do one of my friends hair. When I got home she informed me that her daddy took her to the park! Oh my that just made my day!! I love that he worked all day then took time out and brought her to the park. That makes my heart so happy. We have a very busy weekend. I'm kinda excited about my dr appt Monday...even though I'm sure I'll cry! Oh well :)